I'm not even going to look back to see when my last post was published. Not because I don't think it matters, but because I want to focus on the now. I want to focus on the fact I can change it in an instant. I've been waiting too long to 'make it happen' and need to let go of fear and just blog. My mind has feed too much into the pressure of being a full-blown blogger, instead of going back to basics. Going back to when I started my first blog: All I wanted to do is write, connect, and express myself in a community of like-minded people.
And I haven't been doing that.
Honestly, I've been letting my insecurities take over. I've let the world around me influence my thoughts too much, which results in me holding back...which means zero blogging.
At some point in life, we have to let go of the fear, and just live. We have to do what makes us most happy and stop worrying about what others might think or might say. If we were to listen to all of that, I'm sure many of us wouldn't be living lives full of joy and happiness. Something I am always striving for is living an authentic life, which I haven't been doing. If this blog will help me to connect with others, help them through a tough spot in their own lives, I need to work every day on becoming more authentic for that to happen.
My belief is strong that everything that happens in our lives, happens for a reason. That every negative in our life does have a silver lining. And in my case, a turquoise lining. I've accepted a rather rough start to this new blog, but know at the same time it is happening this way for a reason. Life somehow manages to give us what it knows we can handle.