I'm Here.

Well, I suppose it's been awhile.

This space is always in the back of my mind as "someday." When the timing feels right, or the perfect words come through. And if I wait for that time or those words, my writing won't happen.

So here I am, jumping in slowly. And just getting the words going. 

Life is shifting and changing every day. The person I was a year seems foreign. And, she is within me; she is a part of this story, too.

And my hope is to start sharing my story, so you know you aren't alone. Or so you become inspired to realize you are living your story right now. 

I'll leave you with this: You have the power to make the most of every day you are given. 

 

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Blogmas Day 23 / Gratitude of the Past // March 2012

Couldn't think of a better time than to share what I'm grateful for in this beautiful life. Whether it was from almost 4 years ago to 4 days ago to even 4 hours ago, I've learned to find gratitude at the end of the day because there is never a reason to go to bed upset. I will never deny having hard and trying days, because those days can teach us the biggest lessons in life.

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3.1.12

  1. Mac & cheese with hot dogs.
  2. Cold Stone ice cream treats.
  3. Cancelled classes.

3.2.12

  1. New Essie nail polish.
  2. Tie dye socks.
  3. Leftover mac & cheese.

3.3.12

  1. A new hairdo with a slight confidence boost.
  2. Rice Krispies.
  3. Finding the courage & strength to help me through the night.

3.4.12

  1. Great laughs at the Attitudes showing.
  2. Accomplishing a great to-do list.
  3. Sleepy, in-bed conversations with my Matt.

3.5.12

  1. Starting my journey to lululemon.
  2. Mount Royal Fine Foods. =)
  3. Happy days. =)

3.6.12

  1. Sweet potato fries & strawberries.
  2. Piccsy. =)
  3. Gene Simmons: Family Jewels.

3.7.12

  1. A great on-campus workout.
  2. Normative eating.
  3. Water. =)

3.8.12

  1. Feeling sore.
  2. Amazing egg scramble.
  3. Spring Break! =)

3.9.12

  1. Work shifts at Cold Stone with Brody.
  2. Finally having Jade back in town!
  3. Dereck Williams - my amazing hair guru.

3.10.12

  1. Turning in a jar full of change for shopping money.
  2. Target runs - especially with Jade.
  3. Baking...with Jade.

3.11.12

  1. Caribou Coffee to start a road trip.
  2. Brasa & their amazing food.
  3. Having confidence that Matt and I will make it through this.

3.12.12

  1. The MOA. =)
  2. My amazing new scuba hoodie from lululemon.
  3. Puddle jumpers!

3.13.12

  1. An amazing few days with Matt in the cities.
  2. Walks on the Lakewalk in the spring air.
  3. Days filled with more sunlight.

3.14.12

  1. A run on the Lakewalk.
  2. Feeling cleansed inside & out.
  3. My Kindle.

3.15.12

  1. Having a Duluth date with Matt.
  2. Having the courage to try recipes with self-confidence.
  3. Days without a stomach-ache.

3.16.12

  1. Busy days at work.
  2. Mac & cheese!
  3. Long workouts with Jillian.

3.17.12

  1. My amazing mother.
  2. Having friends to vent out to.
  3. A clean kitchen.

3.18.12

  1. The nights I am able to get great sleep.
  2. Snuggling with Matt before bed.
  3. Days when my stomach doesn't hurt.

3.19.12

  1. The great work family at Cold Stone that I am blessed with.
  2. The days where I truly feel I matter.
  3. New frozen yogurt at Cold Stone.

3.20.12

  1. Coffee dates with Matthew.
  2. A good night's sleep.
  3. Rain instead of snow.

3.21.12

  1. Ballet classes with Nancy.
  2. Great friends to help with homework.
  3. Being able to stay busy.

3.22.12

  1. Jennifer Madill Hagen and the studio.
  2. The dance life I have.
  3. Matt. =)

3.23.12

  1. A new love for sushi at Hanabi.
  2. Les Miserables at the Playhouse.
  3. The wonderful people I met through being a part of Cabaret.

3.24.12

  1. Patty's generosity for our crew meeting.
  2. Caribou time spent with Chelsey and Brody.
  3. Busy, busy work shifts, especially those who make it a fantastic time.

3.25.12

  1. Spending some morning time with M.
  2. A good Bob Harper workout.
  3. My mom for giving me rides to Cold Stone.

3.26.12

  1. Relaxation.
  2. Times when I'm healthy.
  3. The motion picture...The Hunger Games.

3.27.12

  1. My "philosophy" class.
  2. Target <3
  3. Going to bed just a little bit earlier.

3.28.12

  1. This wonderful day that my mom was born on.
  2. That Nancy is available in my life.
  3. Healthy groceries. =)

3.29.12

  1. The end of a hard week.
  2. Talking it all out with Matt.
  3. Myself.

3.30.12

  1. Days spent with Matt.
  2. Bedtime in the living room.
  3. An amazing homemade dinner.

3.31.12

  1. Extra hours at work.
  2. Broken cookies.
  3. Homemade breakfast.

 

Blogmas Day 20 / Sunday.

IMG_8792 Do you ever get it in your head you'll be able to accomplish so much in one day? You even manage to tell others the plans you have for the day ahead, and can see yourself doing every one of them.

But what happens when those little things go undone for that day?

You just move on from it. That's all it takes.

I set the standard high for my Saturday, and by the end of the night, I found nothing accomplished on my mental to-do list. To a certain point, I did feel a little upset about it. But I immediately stopped that thinking and remembered how our minds sometimes need complete downtime. How letting yourself relax and focus on either a movie, show or book can do wonders for the mind.

And as I woke up on this Sunday morning, I could already feel the benefit from letting myself recharge on Saturday. I started my day with a few YouTube videos and going through my email. I managed to get a nice breakfast put together before Matt and I headed out to an 8am (!!) showing of Star Wars : The Force Awakens (we were both blown away with how good it was and I couldn't stop sighing and saying wow as we drove away from the theater).

From there, we headed to Target and Mount Royal Market to get our grocery shopping done for the week - and didn't even have a list! I think because of Christmas this week, it made shopping a little easier since most of our meals are already planned for. A little Starbucks run to brighten up the rest of our morning, and we were home. Matt dealt with our slippery stairs outside and his car, while I put away the groceries, made lunch and sat down to watch the SacconeJolys. Finally managed to get our laundry started and brought the recycling and trash.

Am I surprised it is only 1:53pm now? Yes, yes I am.

See, even when we have those days where we can only manage to recharge and relax, the next day can hold so much in it, as long as we allow it to and let positivity take over.

So here's to you - if you are spending the day getting through your to-do list or relaxing on the sofa with some Netflix on - enjoy it. Enjoy what each day brings and embrace it to its fullest. This life is too short to live in a fog of negativity.

A to Z Survey.

Oh hello there Monday! After an unintended hiatus just living life, why not come back with a fun survey. On the agenda for tomorrow is a Currently post for July. Yes, we will already be almost halfway through the month, but I love knowing I'll be able to look back on these in the next year! And what can I say; I'm always up for a good ol' survey. After first reading through this survey on Julie's blog, and then reading it again on Lindsay's and Caitlin's, I had to jump on in.

I have to say how happy I was to sit down and blog a little bit this weekend. It just feels...right.

A - Age: 23.

B - Biggest Fear: Dogs and heights. Don't know why heights, but after being attacked by our family dog my junior year of high school, that one has stuck.

C - Current Time: 7:57pm. Love how it is still light out this late during the summer.

D - Drink You Had Last: Water. Before that, Spark.

E - Easiest Person to Talk to: My momma and Matthew.

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F - Favorite Song: Too hard to pick one...really. Right now, I'm loving Sam Smith and Taylor Swift.

G - Grossest Memory: Getting food poisoning. No more details than that.

H - Hometown: Duluth, MN.

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I - In Love With: Matthew, little Lumi kitty and weekends.

J - Jealous Of: people who have their family close by. I'd love to visit my mom for the evening.

K - Kindest Person You Know: Mary from my CrossFit gym, hands down. Actually, my whole CFA family is the kindest bunch around.

L - Longest Relationship: Matthew - 8 years in October. #putaringonit?

M - Middle Name: Ann.

N - Number of Siblings: One older sister, and one younger step-brother.

O - One Wish: To see my sister and nieces soon. It's B's 7th Birthday today!

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P - Person You Spoke to on the Phone Last: My momma.

Q - Question You're Always Asked: This is a tough one, but when people find out my real age, they always respond with "Really?"

R - Reason to Smile: Lumi meow-crying at a robin outside.

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S - Song You Last Sang: Pretty much every song of Sam Smith's when it comes on in the car.

T - Time You Woke Up: 7:58am. Sundays are lovely when you get a chance to sleep in. And when oats are for breakfast.

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U - Underwear Color: Leopard.

V - Vacation Destination: Europe with Matthew. I'd do it in a heartbeat if we could.

W - Worst Habit: Touching my face. And being on social media too much.

X - X-Rays You've Had: Arm. Teeth (quite a few times). Foot. Knee. So really 3 if you don't count getting them at the dentist.

Y - Your Favorite Food: Sweet potatoes. Dark chocolate. Froyo.

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Z - Zodiac Sign: Aquarius.

 

Pick a letter and tell me a story about you! 

06.23.2015 Bridge Built Entry.

CLASS WOD A: MBSC (x10) :30W/:30R

100 with 14# [Ouch!]

B: CHIPPER

50 Wall Balls (14#)

40 TTB

30 Box Jumps (20")

20 Burpees

10 Pull-Ups

End Result: 14:07 / This was a painful workout, considering my arms were quite sore from the burpee pull-ups on Monday. Also, getting ready to do the chipper after the MBSC? Ouch. Legs were really burnt out already; I also realized, with a cue from Coach Jordan, that I was not getting down as far + quick during my wall balls, which usually isn't a problem. Looking back, I'm sure it was from doing so many MBSC in a short amount of time..

Skill Programming: None. Arms were burnt out, and a lot of my skill work for this week revolved around arms/upper body. I made a promise to myself to try and make it up before the week's end.


 

Sleep/Nutrition / No comment, really. Still waiting to hear back from ETP. Sleep is still low; need to be better about establishing a nighttime routine where I can get to bed earlier.

Busy is Busy.

Whoa, sorry about the unexpected hiatus. #mybad I will never claim my life to be busier than anyone else's. Just like this TED talk where Chimamanda Adichie talks about the danger of a single story, or the one where Ash Beckham talks about how hard is hard. Your busy and my busy are at the same level; what they contain is the only difference.

Regardless, life has just been busy. Nights have been filled with errands and training, and weekend have been filled with events here and there. And I love it. Being able to see people outside of my "normal" life and hang out with my gym family in a relaxed non-active environment is wonderful. Being able to be with my dad's family as my sweet cousin got married was one of the best weekends this month. As much as I claim to be a homebody and love spending my weekends at home, I'm trying to rid my mind of repeating that mantra - the one where I just want to stay at home. This life is for living, and I need to remember that. I need to remember how important the people in my life are.

It is about connecting at BBQ's, catching up at grad parties, and celebrating family through marriages. It is about taking an entire weekend off to go watch the Central Regionals in the Cities. It's about making dinner and breakfast dates to connect with the people who make the biggest difference in your life. How foolish it is to think being at home - alone - matters more then that. And as the end of June approaches, the busyness of life is certainly going to slow down, and I'll embrace what each day bring. In my eyes, it seems to be perfect timing; M started a new job at the hospital, which means more weekends off than ever before.

My heart is more content with this life than I have ever felt before. And as each day passes, I can't wait to see what my future holds. But in the mean time, I'll be living here in the now...knowing it will connect into my future in some way.

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The only question on my mind - how have you been? 

06.15.2015 thru 06.19.2015 Bridge Built Entries.

06.15.2015 - Monday

CLASS WOD - 0520

A: Clean & Jerk, 1 rep - build to heavy / 100#

B: 6 RFT - 15 cap

8 Power Cleans (75#)

8 Bar Over Burpees

8 TTB

End Result: 5 + 16 reps / Felt really awful at the end of this WOD. Not certain what was going on in my body, but as I like to describe how some WODs felt - it felt like garbage. I was glad to finish and knew something was off after the workout for the rest of the day

Skill Programming / None.

NO SPORT CLASS / I was feeling very off and exhausted in the morning, and didn't start to feel better throughout the day. I knew it would benefit me more to rest, so I listened to my body. After messaging with Ryan, we decide to shift my Hatch squats to Wednesday and Friday, with skipping a normal class WOD on Friday morning.

06.16.2015 - Tuesday

CLASS WOD - 1800

A: 10 EMOM x3 Negative HSPU

B: 10 AMRAP

10 G2O (65#)

10 Wall Ball (12#)

200m Sprint

End Result: 3 + 8 / Ick again.

C: W:30, R:10 (x5) Hollow Rocks

Skill Programming / I considered part A of the class as my skill work, since it matched up to what I was suppose to do on Monday.

06.17.2015 - Wednesday

CLASS WOD - 0520

A: (x10) 3 UB Kipping HSPU, :45sec. rest

B: 20-10-5-10-20

Burpee Box Overs (20")

American KB Swings (45#)

Buy-Out: 200 SU's

End Result: 14:41 / Kept a pace and that was all that mattered for this.

With Mary: (x4) of 15-14# Med Ball Abmats

SPORT CLASS - 1800

Back Squats - W5D1

  • 1x8 @ 65% - 115#
  • 1x6 @ 75% - 130#
  • 1x4 @ 85% - 150#
  • 1x4 @ 90% - 155#

Front Squats - W5D2

  • 1x5 @ 70% - 105#
  • 1x4 @ 80% - 120#
  • 1x3 @ 85% - 125#
  • 1x3 @ 90% - 135# = Per Coach Ryan's advice, did not do because of back feeling strained.

Skill / x5 Hang Squat Clean - Unbroken (55#/55#/75#/75#)

Skill Programming / I had planned to do (x5) 5 coach assisted strict pull-ups, but because of my back, I did not do any skill programming.

06.18.2015 - Thursday

REST DAY

Very needed after having a hurt back. Tried to relax a lot instead.

06.19.2015 - Friday

Back Squats - W5D2

  • 1x6 @ 65% - 115#
  • 1x6 @ 75% - 130#
  • 1x6 @ 80% - 140#
  • 1x6 @ 80% - 140#

Front Squats - W5D2

  • 1x5 @ 60% - 90#
  • 1x5 @ 65% - 95#
  • 1x5 @ 70% - 105#
  • 1x5 @ 70% - 105#

This was my make-up so I could be caught up on my squatting for this week of Hatch. No skill programming; I did go on a 400m jog and attempted to work through DU's.


 

Sleep + Nutrition /

Sleep was okay this week. Matt was gone in Vegas, so the bed just felt off without him here. I tried to allow Lumi to sleep with me some of the nights, which ended up not always working out since she woke me up. I, unfortunately, had insomnia on Tuesday night. Contributing factors: doing the evening WOD, having a huge dinner, and having anxious feelings. I am certain I was have an anxiety attack as I was trying to fall asleep, so I made sure to try and find ways to calm myself and my mind down.

Nutrition felt pretty good this week as I was tracking macros. I was able to find some meals that stuck with me during the day. I did eat out three nights, but that was okay. First night was for me, second night was to connect after the WOD, and the third night was with one of my best gal pals for a little date night. Towards the end of the week, I was getting frustrated with macros/tracking. At this time, I will be looking for more one-on-one help.

06.09.2015 Bridge Built Entry

CLASS WOD A:

0:00-3:00 Box Pike HSPU

3:00-6:00 HSPU on wall

Reps: 30 / 9 (I did negatives for the HSPU's on the wall, with an abmat and 25# plates under both hands).

 

B: 10 AMRAP

6 Dball Shuttle Runs (10#, down and back)

12 Burpees

End Result: 3 + 3 / SORE legs, so I just took this one slow today. I liked the laidback nature of the WOD today.

 

C: 100 Flutter Kicks (4 count)

D: Four Square

Skill Programming / Doing the pike HSPU and some negatives will definitely count towards working on my HSPU and upper body strength. Still trying to find a time where I will be able to meet with Ryan and discuss my next set of programming.


Sleep / Just over 6 hours, so not my best, but felt okay getting to the gym. Those 6 hours still felt solid. Woke up pretty sore, and in hope my body would remember how to run.

Nutrition / A little frustrated with flexible dieting right now, but still telling myself it is a learning journey and there is no reason to get frustrated since it is an entirely new habit for me. Eating has been good. Went to bed bloated last night, and was unsure of what caused it. Woke up in the morning feeling just fine.

 

Fearless Wonder.

Am I the only one who is finding it odd I'm experience writer's block so soon after starting a new blog? I imagined I would be so inspired, and eager to share my thoughts with all of you with a fresh start. But every time I sign into my admin to start a new post - my mind seems blank. Yes, my draft folder is full of ideas here and there, but I feel each post is pretty similar to the last. And it is okay. I have to live with the truth - everything in life isn't as easy as we always hope it will be. So here I am, sorting through my thoughts on a new blog and rambling them out as they come. I want ATL to be a place where I can feel completely comfortable sharing all thoughts, no matter what the posts look like. This shouldn't be as hard as my mind is making it; blogs are mostly created to be a place to journal out your thoughts and show them to the world around you.

What I believe I need to work through is the fear...

Fear that each post needs to be perfect.

Fear that, because something I publish, may not get any comments.

Fear that I still don't know what pattern I need/want to follow.

And really, just typing it out makes me feel better. There is a moment as a blogger where you want to be doing your best possible; to show the road as easy and seamless. But it is not the truth. Being open to disclosing your life online is hard, and sometimes, just plain weird. I agree more so with the latter right now, so here is me embracing the weird. But more importantly, this is me being the most authentic version of myself. Perfection is a silly thought in our minds, and it is crazy for me to think of this blog as being perfect. I know other areas of my life aren't, and hey yo, that's fine. No one is perfect. My word for 2015, whether I shared it publicly or not, is Authentic. Throughout 2014, I was working through 'Simplify' -- moving from living a simplified life to an authentic seemed to be the natural transition to become more solid in knowing who I am.

I'm ready to work through the mind blocks and just be me. I want to connect with so many people, and the only true way to do so is by being myself 100%. So here's to sharing whatever comes to mind, no matter what. My only standard for myself is making sure I proofread for errors; others, nothing will be off limits.

And I love that idea.

 

Just your thoughts today; I'd love to hear them!

 

 

Thinking Out Loud #2

Back and ready for another ToL post with Amanda! I'm a lover of rambling; remember my last blog, Ramblings of Change? So doing the ToL posts each weeks make it easy to get a post up since I just ramble away. It has been a trying week so far (as I type this up on Wednesday), so I'm trying my hardest to find the turquoise linings this week and stay positive no matter what. Without further ado, let the rambling begin!

Thinking-Out-Loud

1. I had a sad night of insomnia this week from Tuesday to Wednesday. Didn't truly fall asleep until after 2:30am, and when I woke up and turned off my Sleep Cycle alarm, I clocked in about 3ish hours. Yuck. The funny part? My boss mentioned at work I looked quite 'chipper' (#win). My guess would be if the insomnia repeats tonight (Wednesday), Thursday won't look as chipper!

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2. And let me be grateful I had money on my Starbucks app this morning - hello iced white chocolate mocha, half the syrup, with coconut milk! I'll forever be thankful for my blend Julianna for 1) posting a photo of this coffee on Twitter and 2) giving me the deets. I am certain this could be my forever order when it comes to iced mochas. I had to talk myself out of going back after work for a Oprah cinnamon chai tea latte.

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3. Off the topic of sleep and caffeine... Can someone please order this crop for me. Obviously because doughnuts and deadlifts are a match made in heaven AND its mint. Gosh, a tank after my own heart.

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4. This past weekend, I finally watched "Fed Up". Let's just say after it ended, I was in a bit of shock. We are all so immersed into the lies of the food industry, and when the truth finally comes out, all you felt was anger. My heart goes out to all the children featured in the film. We have to realize the decisions we make for our children will continue to affect them for the rest of their lives. And now I promptly want to throw away all the junk in my life. At the same time - what's wrong with a treat?

5. All is well in the world this week since I was FINALLY able to order some Spark and Catalyst! Ah, feels good to know I'll have some awesome morning energy for my WODs again. It had been rough the past few weeks. After going this long without it, I know now the magical powers of having Spark in my life. Contact me if you have any questions about AdvoCare - comment below and we can connect!

6. My beautiful blend, Gracie, posted this week about how to make a personal mission statement. I was immediately inspired, and plan to share mine in the coming week (if it's done!). As much as we all believe we know who were, actually writing out how I would want others to describe me, or what fulfills me, helped me feel more grounded in my journey of becoming a health and CrossFit coach.

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7. Tonight = family dinner at the Tibodeau's! With my momma oh so far away in Florida, I cherish the nights Meg has us over for dinner. Never underestimate what a little family time can do for the soul. Now here's to hoping there are ribs on the menu tonight...

 

Have you considered writing a mission statement of your own?

Any sleep tricks you have to pass on - an insomnia night a week is getting old.

 

Lately I've Been...

Here I sit, trying to figure out a way to connect. To connect with your lovely faces. But through that process, I'm thinking about how I should be tidying up the apartment for my mom's pending visit. I'm also thinking about how I should get my lunch together for tomorrow and pick out my WOD gear...oh, and a work outfit too.

This fresh start is truly what I wanted, and I'm so happy I jumped right in. Starting a blog on a random weekday night? Best decision ever. Life's too short to not follow your heart. If I was still writing over on RoC, I'd have guilt rush over me as I miss a few days here and there between posts. But here? I'm happy. And I'm merely just trying to flush thoughts out of my mind so I can focus on the moments that truly matter. So as I stop my rambling, here is what I've been doing lately. Shout out to my ladies Colleen & Gracie for originally sharing these posts!


Making / more time to blog and reconnect into this amazing community ; also, recipes that I pin (crazy, right?)

Cooking / lots of stir fries for dinner...because sushi rice is the bomb.com.

Drinking / mostly water, with chai lattes and FitAid here and there ; may I also mention that I love the new Berry Legit from Kill Cliff?

Reading / blogs mostly, but at night, I pick up my Kindle to read "If I Stay" ; and as of today, Krissy Mae Cagney's Flexible Dieting 2.0 is added to that list.

Wanting / a long weekend with no plans, aka this coming weekend.

Looking / forward to seeing my mom, sister and nieces this week! Missed all of their darling faces. 

Playing / post-it toss with the kitten. It's her fav. 

Wasting / more time than usual with Insta. I need a bit of a detox. Seriously.

Sewing / nada - but my mom and I are going to pick out quilt fabric for THIS diy by A Beautiful Mess.

Wishing / coffee dates with far away friends would be easier.

Enjoying / the time I've been making to journal here and there ; plus, my new sport level membership at CrossFit Aerial #inlove

Waiting / for that first summer-like weekend, with grilling and everything. Or a girls' night with some of my CFA ladies.

Liking / my 5:20am CrossFit WOD- never thought the day would come!

Wondering / what my future holds as I start following my coaching dreams.

Loving / my simple little life -- it's what makes me jump, or should I say stumble, out of bed in the morning.

Hoping / to make the most of my mom being in Minnesota and my sister being here from the Twin Cities.

Marveling / over how cute my littlest niece is and how smart my favorite niece is...but really, they will both be my favorite littlest nieces.

Needing / more WOD clothes. Budgets are hard.

Smelling / steak and sesame soba noodles. *insert heart-eyed emoji*

Wearing / Madill sweats. CFA hoodie. Hot pink tank. #fashionable #nailedit

Following / some pretty amazing ladies on Insta (click to follow me!) and on their blogs. Never thought a community could inspire me so much.

Noticing / that my hair is already growing?!

Knowing / who I am and being proud of the person I've become over the past 2 years.

Thinking / about the goals I have for CrossFit.

Feeling / calm.

Bookmarking / all.the.articles. Pocket is my new favorite app!

Opening / my heart to be more calm and less stressed.

Giggling / about how crazy kittens can be.

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Choose three things you've been doing lately and share them with me!